temperance14 | Was supposed to have this post planned out

Posts should have been an amusing (or deadly dull) collection of more memes collected from other LJPs, so that I would have just the right group of acceptable memes to show to the LJ world Who I Am.

OR

Something witty or poetic or deep and insightful.

Neither has come up. I've been sleeping off either a cold or a vicious sinus headache. I hate this. I hate when long weekend and free time (or free get-your-ass/life/livingspace together time) comes along and I get sick. Or just plain sick headaches. I just end up hybernating.

And...sat down to write today, in between long naps (hence this posting at 1:15 am).
And
despite the fact that writing is my obsession
despite the ideas I have in notebooks, or the turn of phrase noted in my head during drowses

I can't write here. Fear of doing it wrong, stupidly. Fear of revealing more to strangers and new people in my life more than I should (have already done far, far too much of that in the last few months, last few weeks). Fear of revealing all the foul in my ethics and attitude.
Or dumping out what is currently boiling up through my mind and emotions, and REALLY should be left to evaporate out of my ears where it won't hurt anyone.

And nothing creative, smooth, beautiful, echoing, sonic, phonic, rhythmic or responding.

Shit. God I miss writing.

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